Time Apart - Space -

I have a feeling that falls back onto itself as a hunch but lets just flip it and say I mostly know where these feelings are coming from.  A free body costing not down hill just different juxtapositions of costing specifically in my head, hart, and indescribable feeling that carries with in.  The feeling is lighter then daunting but its something people will ask, “what’s wrong,” and sometimes you just don’t want to talk about the feeling of emotions that are coursing because the help only helps for a briefer period every time.  It’s better to be around people when you know you’ll be trapped in your head, especially if you’re going to be alone.  When it comes to sleep and laying your head down and getting rest, the feelings of saturations become overwhelming and course through you from the last few days, it grips tight dwells on your mind harder.  Sleep turns into tossing and turn in bed and a moment comes, STOP thinking, everything begins to relax.  You wake up some time through the night and the feelings hit, “not now, I need this rest,” you say.  Morning comes and you put your self together for the day, the feeling is lighter but there the thoughts aren’t unraveling themselves so strong as before. 

Time apart, - space - are making things clearer, honest, and healthier decisions are being made with noticeable spectral change for self.  The time apart from the other – person -isn’t what we ultimately want and it seems backwards when initially thinking about our feelings but again its not.  Discussing the thoughts with people that are all here for you physically and mentally are all thinking of you in return.  So that helps…  But also you want to talk too that other person badly.  I haven’t given up on you, so why crack at a thought that grew into a deep halt into giving up on me or us.  We’ve been at each other for the bettering that person but also lost sight of taking care of our selves.  That’s why this time and – space - helps us collect ourselves before tarring one another apart from one another.  The realization is that we are giving our selves a chance to check into ourselves and not be deconstructive in the relationship.  Lets keep progressing, building meaning, values, and all these great things by working through our thoughts of wanting to improve ourselves at human beings. 

That hunch feeling is special its ties itself like a rope on a tugboat when guiding a massive ship into port – we just have so much potential to grow even more by being together and hopefully, you can see that.  If not with me I can only hope with in your self-first and someone else in the future.